I was watching tv and noticed a show called Nueva Estrella. And so, because I am easily seduced, I watched it and it was suprisingly good. In the same vain of American Idol, but the performers have talent. And there are no mean spirited judges. Maxx (who has gone on to the final round) sang "At this moment" when he did I was transported back to the days when I was in love with Alex P. Keaton (I know I was young and silly, he was so stuffy and never really took a risk. Though he did with Ellen and she turned out to be his real life wife!) and my heart was breaking as he tried to catch the train for Ellen, who was engaged to another guy. I loved to imagine that I would be the girl that would break someone's heart. That someone would put himself out there and love me above all else. Plus have the soundtrack to play in the background. I think that is why I love listening to the ipod, I can imagine it is the soundtrack to my movie. The movie that I am staring in. I am a little mad at itunes though. They don't have the song. I mean how could they. It is a classic. A classic I tell you! I am going to have to go out and get one of those 80's albums that the Boy hates. He thinks that pretty much all music in the 80's blows. It is all pretty cheesy, but it makes a girl feel good sometimes or makes her able to wallow in her bad feelings. Silly I know, but very true. I have sort of felt like wallowing lately. I feel like I am slipping into honey. Like it's hard to walk, to do anything really. It comes and goes the slipping into honey. But I will always have Alex and now I can go out and get "our" song. So so silly!!!!! Remember him in Teen Wolf? What a sill girl I was!

I work with the very talented Johanna who had a gig on Tuesday night. She was amazing. I wish I brought my camera. She was sitting on a cushion/stool, with this beautiful white skirt and tank with her great cowboy boots. The lights were making her glow. She was mesmerizing. Her music is quirky and so beautiful. The melodies are marvelous in their simplicity. Plus she plays the ukulele and the lyrics makes me grin. Really really love it. Then her super talented boyfriend went on next with his band The Pages. The were releasing their EP album "Creatures of the Earth". They totally rocked! I love their song Robots. Sweet and amazing lyrics.

This dog is not actually mine. It is one of the dogs my boss brings to work. Her name is Shadow and she is such a great guard dog. Which is good in a painting studio that is usually all female. Take your pet to blog day was started by the amazing p2p. mav & arc (shadow kind of looks like an older django) are two friends blogging together. You must check them out!! They are amazing. Now to explain this photo, my bosses daughter had gone to a job interview near by and these shoes were killing her, so on her way back home she changed into some paint shoes. Now Shadow has claimed them as her own.

I am starting to take a turn in my art. My girl’s face is changing. Her face is getting wider and her eyes sadder. I am trying to push myself, push my ideas. The original sketch was simple, more like my older paintings.
Then I started this painting. My painting process is really quick. I like to get down and dirty and then be done. It is the same way that I approach the camera. Well it is a little different. Now that I am thinking about it, my new painting style is how I best use the camera. When I did photo shoots in school I planned a little and then I would just see what bubbled up. I would see what would happen with the model and the camera. Every time I would be developing the film hoping that something would be on the film. It was always like a prize when I would begin to unroll the spool to see if there was anything there. I would do a little inside dance, literally every time!
My new painting style is similar. I am starting from one point and seeing where it takes me. I love it. I love not allowing myself a plan, scary but exciting. So for this one I started with a sketch and then consciously tried not to use colors that I am comfortable with. I realized that I am so attracted to green (hence the website name). So I used blue, which I also love, but red makes me nervous. I never really thought about it. At least not consciously. I would just gravitate towards the green. But by using the different colors, different things bubbled up. Like the lights, and the whale.

Chime in on what you think. Positive or negative.

I know people are scared, but the terrorists are not stupid. I think the new random bag check is not what the MTA needs to be doing. (They are now doing random bag searching on the subways, trains and buses in response to the London bombings.) Do you really think the person with bombs in their bag is going to allow themselves to be checked? Really? I think us Americans in our wonderful elitist nature are treating the terrorist as if they are children. Do you think that maybe the MTA is trying to gloss over the fact that they haven't even begun to spend the money they were given in 2002? They have only spent 30 million of 600 million dollars! It all comes down to money. And now instead of real safety we are getting this false sense of security because people can see that something is actively being done. But how long are they going to check bags? How long before all New Yorkers are wearing this? It makes me sad and scared. Scared for the way our country is headed. Scared that we can feel safe when there must be huge holes in their bag check idea! I am going to do a test and see how well they are covering a station. I'll let you know how it turned out, and tomorrow I will post a new paintings that I am ready to show. I am headed down a dark road in my art, well dark for me. They make the Boy a little uncomfortable, but I like them. I am definitely stepping out of me comfort zone. I also am working on the vine robot and he is looking good. I am done with my rant.