Archive for January, 2007

from a drive

Wednesday, January 31st, 2007

*This photographer creates amazing moods (love this pool image)
*I got the color film and I am going to try a take some night shots of the pools nearby.
*Hopefully I will have some photos of my balcony studio soon.

barely there

Monday, January 29th, 2007


somewhere along riverside…

some moments around town…

*i love the 'kiss & ride' signs at the subway stations (such a beautiful little thought)
*so many donut shops (ah the love of sprinkles!)
*liquor stores…lots out here in the valley and with 'clever' names (there is this big clown one that frightens me - it has a huge huge neon clown sign)
*people taking horrible photos for headshots. (I so want to call out the window and tell them it is all wrong - the light, the position) it would be funny if it wasn't so sad
*most of the car wash places have a little food stand on site…perfect plan for the hungry person waiting for their car 

things I need to do 

-need to get some color film
-I bought a twin lens reflex camera on ebay, need to get it
-need to start painting again, bought some canvases at dick blick
-need to mix some paint for the above canvases
-need to take care of some emails
-need to finish unpacking my stuff and find a home for it
-need to go to the water again

Wednesday, January 24th, 2007

We got a new apartment. We have internet again. But we also have to put everything away. I am still wrapping my head around the fact that it is winter and I can wear flip-flops.

Right now we are piled under boxes and trying to figure out where everything should go and all I want to do is crawl into bed and hide under the covers until everything finds a home. So for the next few weeks I will be here sporadically.

Risa's tea party was amazing, thank you everyone that came by. It was lovely to play along.

risa’s tea party

Friday, January 12th, 2007

Risa is having a tea party!!
I love the sweets…cookies and the like, so I thought I'd bring some sweet treats to the party.

Some cupcakes (if you can get them before the birds do).

My absolute favorite…donuts with sprinkles. (I never understood why in nyc they only sprinkled half of the donuts…)

What an amazing get together! Thanks Risa!! 

word 2 of 30

Wednesday, January 10th, 2007


perhaps (approx 4" x 5")
gouache on board

Even though I still don't have a proper place to paint or call my own (hopefully not speaking too soon) I seem to have uncorked the sketching. I didn't work yesterday and the Boy is still in nyc so I tooled around solo. It was a nice breathing space, to sort of fill with silent ideas.

Janel gave word number two. I feel like I stand in this position often. And I find that I am most often is this stance when I am between things. When I am pausing. I thought perhaps was a fitting word.

definition from Webster's new world:
possibly; maybe

sweet

Tuesday, January 9th, 2007

The best strawberries that I have had in probably eight years. All my time in new york. I got them from the local farmer's market.  Unbelievably good and seven bucks for three pints you can never go wrong. The whole lot was so crazy sweet. 

Talking about sweet…how cool is this! Sleeping over at the Natural History Museum. 

Another word painting tomorrow. 

 

word 1 of 30

Monday, January 8th, 2007


saudade (approx 4" x 5")
gouache on board

I painted. I finally stopped trying to figure out why it wasn't happening and it happend. I also  tried to stop beating myself up about it. I think it might have helped that I started working. That I started some sort of routine. Even if it isn't a regular one. The new apartment still isn't settled hopefully soon. I would love a place to call my own…all fingers crossed it will happen soon.  

My first word saudade (there is no particular order besides whatever comes out of my head first) was given to me by Anita and I love the mystery of the word. I love that it is only used by the Portuguese.

from wikipedia 

Saudade is generally considered one of the hardest words to translate. It originated from the Latin word solitatem (loneliness, solitude), but developed a different meaning. Loneliness in Portuguese is solidão (a semi-learned word), from Latin solitudo. Few other languages in the world have a word with such meaning, making saudade a distinct mark of Portuguese culture. It has been said that this, more than anything else, represents what it is to be Portuguese.

In his book In Portugal of 1912, A.F.G Bell writes:
"The famous saudade of the Portuguese is a vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist, for something other than the present, a turning towards the past or towards the future; not an active discontent or poignant sadness but an indolent dreaming wistfulness."

Just for fun another photo of one of my beach days. I loved the pink and grey that was happening with the sky and water.

new year

Thursday, January 4th, 2007


avila beach
guest photographer: the boy

This month or rather last month has been wiggly for me…being out of my element, out of my routine. I never realized how I depended on things. How important a train ride was. For sitting, for sketching, for listening. This year is going to be one of major change. Figuring out how to draw again. Finding the place that’ll work for me to draw. It's been hard the drawing thing. Not having a proper place to paint has been hard. Being in a stranger’s space is messing with my head. I am sort of at a standstill. Which is affecting me strangely. I feel a little like I am putting my creative energies on hold or something. Now I feel pressure when I go somewhere to sketch. I think part of it is that I haven't found 'my' place yet…

That should end soon, but in a different way than I expected. The Boy is back in nyc to pack us up. To move west. Yep we are moving west moving to so cal. It is really exciting, but a little part of me needs to mourn nyc. And I haven’t forgotten about my word project…the words are swirling around and several have made their way to sketch form in fits and starts. I just need to get them painted. I think this week I am going to get us settled in an apartment. Or rather sign the papers and hand over the money, so that should help a lot. To have our own space.

happy new year!